so im not feeling down anymore.....slightly.

im still pissed at jyrki.

its all his fault anyways!

whatever. im going out for drinks, anyone want to join?

call meh!

you know, why do i even bother?

i mean fir one, who the hell thinks im good looking?

for two, who the hell would want me to have their babies?

and if they did they must have lost a bet or were drunk at the time.

so you know what? im not even gonna fuck with it anymore

so.....

moveing back to tampere really was a good idea after all.

I missed my friends and family like crazy. And im so glad to be back home!

so, screw you helsinki bastards! im staying home!

Love,

Ville-kins

PS :- Jyrki can still kiss my ass, and suck it too

So.......

I;ve decided to say fuck and move back to tampere. Why may you ask?

BECAUSE HELLSINKI SUCKS!

literally, and so do the bastards that live here.

screw this dump of a city, and all the people who live here.

I'm better off back home where people actually care about others besides themselves


especially this guy, he sucks. fuck you.

Ville

All of  you bastards can suck it and go to hell.

I feel like crap, sick and bored and you know what?

FUCK IT! Christ at the rate i'm going i might as join a buddhist monestary or something!

bleh,

Ville

PS:- jyrki, you suck the mot, i hate you so bad. go to hell

So i got all my shit moved to hellcity finally. but.....i got no V-Day sex! *cries* so now i'm shooting for st. patricks day, i'm already greening the place out......kinda. but i'm starting to llose my damn patience! for fucks sake!

So i got bored, couldn't find a damn thing on tv, go figure. So i grabbed a dvd and it turned out that it was "WILD AT HEART"!  I didn't realize until i watched it that nicholas cage is BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! Not to sound over-excited but damn, the man is aboslutely gorgeous. Espically with an accent and a snakeskin jacket. *swoons*. hahaha. I could not resist that little bit of info. Honestly though the man is really lovely. and he's a great singer too! *faint*

SO now new years is upon us. yes the end of the year when we all decide on resolutions an dall that shit. I thought of having a new years party, but decided not to. instead i think i'll travel to helsinki and spend it with jyrki. aand maybe get a new years lay too. i don't know, don't judge me. I'M HORNY AND LONELY DAMMIT!

I'm so fucking bored that it's not even funny. I need something to do, and someone to lay.

That's what i want for christmas! a good long lay!

i just scared myself sensenseles....

I just realized there's an 18 year diffence between myself and jyrki.

which means the man is old enough to be my father! wow....

now why does this not bother me? i really have no fucking clue.

funny thing is i was just watchign some random movie on tv when that hit me.

wow, i'm wierd

I'm not even kidding. Or i need to chill on the psycho thriller movies because they're taking their toll i'm damn sure of it.

So last night i had i guess a nightmare of sorts. You know those old electroshock units they have at asylums? You know that would e used to overcharge the patients brains? Yeah well i was nailed, yes NAILED literally to the damn thing. fucking scary as hell especially since it was made in a way that it looks like a cross (read one flew over the cuckoo's nest one too many times i guess). Anyway, there's the little head band or earmuffs or what the hell ever it is they use. And i'm looking around to see who's in the room or at the control sand somehow i'm standing at the control panel also except in all black, yes even the hair. I'm thinking what the hell is going on when the other ville turns the machien on and i swear to you the shocks were so damn painful they felt real! I mean they were maybe 30-40,000 volts which is a lot. And there wasn't the little thign they'd put in your mouth so you don't bite your tongue which is a bit creepy. And so i'm nailed to this fucking thingtwitching and screaming like i'm beign tortured (which i guess i more or less was) by myself. So by the time i'm like covered in ash with burning skin and my insides are still shorting out and burning and frying, i've got blood coming from like every orifice. (Yeah you'd think i'd be dead from that but it was a dream) and so the other ville (the one in black i guess he's evil or something) comes out from the control panel and just stares at me and starts laughing! laughing of all things i tell you! and i get ready to say somethign to him, well technically ask why but instead blood just starts gushing out of my eyes and nose and mouth until the whole room is completely flooded and evil ville is still just laughing. So once i'm not a bloody waterfall anymore i give him a dirty look and he goes back to the control panel again and turns it back on! Except this time it was twice what it was, instead it was like 60,000 so it was three times as bad but this time my skin is like literally frying to the point where it catches fire. (told ya it was creepy) so then the whole room is on fire the other ville is just standing there laughing.......

And then i woke up, except i had a raging migraine and a very bad nosebleed and the cops were knocking on my door. I guess i really was screaming and it woke one of the neighbors.Yeah and they saw my nose was bleeding and asked if i needed to go the hospital, or if i felt like i was gonna hurt myself. You know the standard stuff.

To say the least i did not get back to sleep after that, i was way too fuckin scared to sleep. I still am kind of, and i'm seriously questioning my sanity.

I need advice on this, or maybe an interpretation, i don't know but i need some help or maybe one day i'll end up giving myself that hardcore of a shock. and my nose is bleeding again just thinking of it so i'm gonna go and take care of it.

Ville

so.....tomorrows halloween thank god! And i'm leaving later on for helsinki so i can have some proper halloween fun!

anyways, i'm bored, and hungry. I just got to my lil hotel in hell city and i'm really tempted to go get some chinese or something.

what am i saying? All i eat is chinese, ok. i'm gonna call up a pizza place and be done with it. bye bitches!

PS:- I HAVE A COSTUME FOR CERESE! compliments of kris of course with a bit of altering. see ya!